When I look at the current seniors getting ready to graduate, I can't help but think about me last year in the same situation - in disbelief. excited. mostly sad.

It's been exactly 11 months since my graduation from college. I am in even more disbelief now than 11 months ago. I've been an adult for almost a year.

What's funny is that most people around me perceive me as an 'old' person. Not just by age, but sort of a more responsible and practical person. A wiser man? maybe, maybe not.

But when I talk to my family, I still talk like a kid. I am the youngest at home, and I think it comes out. I'm a mak-neh. And I don't want to lose that side of me. still kinda innocent. not completely jaded yet. still laughing at stupid jokes that i used to laugh at 6-7 years ago.

ah.. i donno what i'm talking about... i'm just jealous of everyone who's still in school..

I'm a '24' fanatic. I watched '24' seasons 1-3 in about a week during last summer. And I'm planning on watching season 4 during my next vacation (whenever that is). Season 5 is currently playing on TV right now. However, since I missed an episode a few weeks back, I just stopped watching it (waiting for DVD) on TV because I want to watch every single episode and not miss anything crucial. So I refused to listen to anyone talking about this season's plot. And then...

I read this freakin article on msnbc.com.
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/12304715/

"[...] This season, however, the show’s plot twists have taken left and right turns, snaking around one another and only ending up back in the same place two hours ago, when we discovered that President Logan was actually the mastermind behind nearly all of the day’s events. [...]"

Eff - is what I said, because that just ruined it all for me.

I hope I didn't ruin it for you.

CNNMoney and Salary.com have ranked the best jobs in America. The top ten is the following:

1. Software Engineer
2. College professor
3. Financial adviser
4. Human Resources Manager
5. Physician assistant
6. Market research analyst
7. Computer IT analyst
8. Real Estate Appraiser
9. Pharmacist
10. Psychologist

According this this, i have a great job (#1 + #7). I knew I didn't wanna be a lawyer or doctor =P

btw, these were determined by considering growth, pay, stress-levels and other factors.
http://money.cnn.com/magazines/moneymag/bestjobs/top50/index.html

Super Dog

It's already been over 3 months since the year 2006 began. Just as all companies do their quarterly earnings report, I need to do a quarterly progress report on what I wanted to accomplish this year. Here's what I said last Christmas on what I wanted to accomplish in 2006:

1. Read Darwin on Trial, Purpose Driven Life.
2. Make and launch my website.
3. Keep doing my Web developing work.
4. Learn ASP.NET - become an expert.
5. Bridge the gap between college and YAG sectors in KCPC EM.
6. Get myself in shape!
7. Watch a lot of good movies.
8. Journal more. Not just blog, but more personal journaling.
9. Pray more.
10. No more being a pussy.

Let's see how I'm doing..
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1. Read Darwin on Trial, Purpose Driven Life.

Well, I actually went and bought 'Darwin on Trial'!! AND read 1 chapter so far. -__- I've had 'Purpose Drive Life' for about 2 years - still have not finished. The biggest problem is, I keep having to start over and over because I wanna read all 40 chapters in 40 consecutive days. Maybe I need a change in strategy... At any rate, I give myself a C for this one. Not failing yet, but barely.
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2. Make and launch my website.

The desire and willingness is so there. However, no action yet. Since I am on my way to sort of become a professional Web developer, this one I should not fail. I just cannot. This one gets a C also.
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3. Keep doing my Web developing work.

I've actually almost started 3 new projects. But one of them is now out, and we're still nogotiating with one, and the other I'm starting to work on. So, yes I am still doing Web development work. I give myself a B because I haven't gotten paid for any of these yet.
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4. Learn ASP.NET - become an expert.

I actually took a class for this - my work paid for it, of course. I like ASP.NET and I think I'll keep learning it. I kinda have to for work anyway. So I get my first A! whoo hoo
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5. Bridge the gap between college and YAG sectors in KCPC EM.

Let's see... I dont know about the 'bridging' part, but I met more people in YAG - esp at the retreat - and I did rejoin Allelu. I'm a yagger + Allelu is predominantly FiCB = ... not much bridging but the effort is definitely there. So it's a B-
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6. Get myself in shape!

Since my Houston business trip, I've been pretty good about this. Until about a week ago. But since I've never been as consistent about exercising as I've been in the past 2 months, I give myself a B+, only because I've kinda fallen off the wagon in the last week or so. But I'm getting back on it fo sho. Starting....this weekend? =P
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7. Watch a lot of good movies.

I signed up for Blockbuster Online. Unfortunately, I've been watching mostly TV shows like Scrubs, Nip Tuck, and Entourage. But some movies too. At least I have the means to watch pretty much any movie I wanna watch now. So it's a B+.
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8. Journal more. Not just blog, but more personal journaling.

F - journaling and kevin don't really go together. Especially this year.
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9. Pray more.

F - I don't think I've ever prayed less. I haven't even gotten myself to pray for lunch in front of co-workers...
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10. No more being a pussy.

F - don't even wanna explain this.
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Continuing with the earnings report analogy, if I were to be evaluated based on my quaterly report, my stock price will drop quite a bit. Aren't most people pretty good about keeping their resolutions at least the first few months of the year? Damn.

But I'll keep trying.

p.o.

emptiness. not loneliness. knowing that i'm taken care of is a huge comfort. lives in a box. wanting to live someone else's life. a fictitious life. fictitious love? oh boy...

i wanna surrender all to you.