my volleyball career came to an end tonight. but what a finish.

i remember when i started playing IM volleyball when I was a sophomore. the team was called FICB. we won 1 match i think. i almost quit playing after that. haha. im so glad i didn't.

tomorrow, we have our soccer playoff game. im very excited. i'm ready to go all out again.

tonight, we had a joint small group with carolina's group. it was interesting. wish everyone had felt more comfortable though.

the semester is winding down. my college career is winding down.

lets go all out eh

there are things in life that you just don't do because you know you shouldn't do it. but sometimes, it's hard to reason with your feelings, instinct, or just purely selfish desires. really hard.

i'm usually very logical. i almost never let my emotion win over my logic. almost never.

i can't stop. honestly, i don't want to stop. what to do. what to do..

now, don't try to jump to any conclusions if you're reading this. you probably have no idea what i'm talking about. i know what you're thinking. and you're wrong my friend.


self-development. that's my next goal.

I have a really really ridiculously bad case of senioritis. I've been attending only one of my 4 classes consistently, and that's because it's at 3pm. I've been doing the bare minimum just to get by. And here I am sitting on my computer today, missing even that one class I usually go to.

I know I shouldn't say it, or even think it. But...what if? gasp! AHHHHHH

This is why God didn't give me a job last semester. I would've flunked all my classes. haha.

But I AM enjoying my last few weeks in college very much. IM sports have been awesome. I can't believe our softball team is going to the playoffs. Last semester, we were happy to win just one game. Now, we're a legitimate contender.

...

ok, maybe not a contender, but still.

We almost made the playoffs in soccer. I wanna come back next year to play soccer. And our volleyball team is just cruising. 2 out of 3 making it to the playoffs. Not bad eh?

And I guess it's official now. Where I'll be working, that is. ChevronTexaco in San Ramon. That means I'll be sticking around the Bay Area. Like, really close to Berkeley.

Anticipation, excitement, regrets, sadness. All mixed up right now.

Small Group. Inspiring.

End of Week 10. Surreal.

Life goes on a little too quickly. This life. This awesome life.